"I long to taste adventure like the nature of the sea,
Always moving, always hiding all the creatures from beneath.
Singing silent songs of sadness my heart waits for its chance,
To dance upon the ashes of my burned up little plans.

And I stand alone before the night.
My nakedness is so clear in the glow of the moonlight.
Life is old but so short.
We are young we want more.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

You don't need air.

My addiction to danger like the rush of the sea,
Like a wave on the rocks the lessons crash down on me.
I don't need to prove the world to you only to myself.
So step back and look away as I dive into the swell.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?
I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
You don't need air.

Take me down to the river like a little child,
Take my hand and tell me its okay to be wild.
I never knew the world until I saw through your eyes,
I never knew my self until I ripped off my disguise.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you've got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

I have come to the realization that life is more than what I have accomplished.
And life is more then the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all.
True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life
and give up the air that you breathe.
You don't need anything."

-The Classic Crime

 So, I haven't written in a REALLY long time, sorry. I guess that I just needed time to figure things out.  I have a whole life to live. I guess that it's time that I realized that life is SO much bigger than my little problems. I mean come on, there is a whole WORLD to see and explore.
 I have decided to go to the beach this summer as kind of like a renewal time. I'm going to go scuba diving for the first time. I am going to take sailing lessons. I want to learn the ropes. (No pun intended. :D Hehe). I get paid to go to school, so I figure what the heck - I might as well enjoy summer break. I haven't decided exactly WHERE I'm going, I don't even know exactly WHEN...but I haven't been to the beach in five long years. And I misss it.
 And P.S. not trying to be rude, but I really don't care how dumb and how much of a waste of money y'all think this might be.....I going and that's final. Yup. Oh, and anyone who would like to join me is more than welcome to come along. I will be paying for things and it's gonna be a blast so please join me ladies and gents! Tori and I have always planned on going anywhere that we want together in America after we both graduated from high school. Well, this will be the trip. :)
 Oh way of boys: I have decided that Jed is no longer a part of my life. I am the thing I build my plans around now. He's a jerk. It's been in front of me this whole time and I was too in love to see it or care for that matter. Well, I've FINALLY woken up. Oh, it feels SO freakin' good to be back! :)
 School is going to be AMAZING this semester. I have great teachers and friends that I already know in most of my classes. I have already bought my books, I'm just waiting on UPS to take it over to Harris Street where I will pick it up.
 I lost my glasses about a month ago. Ugh, these were the REALLY cute ones that I actually liked. But whatever....I looked EVERY where too. So, I'm going today to pick up my NEW-ER pair. Ha, they're SUPER cute. Many thanks to Amerigroup for paying for all of this. :)
 Yup, hmmmm...what else? Paul called me over break about four times and each time we talked for like an hour and a half. :) I hung out with him yesterday. It was fun. We went to Taco Bell between my classes then we hung out at the cabin after his class that ended at 3:20. Momma and Chris weren't home when we got there, so we went down and sat out on the dock and just talked for forever. Then we decided that we wanted some smores. So....we went and hung out in the pool house and roasted marshmallows over candles. :) P.S. The pool house does NOT have heat right now. But since mom and Chris were not there even though I TOLD them that Paul and I were coming over later - but it's coolio. We had LOADS of crazy fun freezing our tired butts off and making ghetto yummy treats. I know that I might sound kind of dumb, but I don't really know where I stand when it comes to Paul. I mean he a good friend and I think he's cute and sweet and all but I don't want things to change between us and go down-hill like they did with Jed....Chris says that I should just find a "rebound" guy so that I can FULLY get over Jed, but when I think about having a fling with some guy: promising nothing and ending up hurting us BOTH in the end - my tummy hurts. I know that it might be typical teen aged girl behavior rebounding off of a guy - BUT I've never been a typical teen girl have I? :) I hate being used and I REFUSE to use someone else. So, with this being said....I am a VERY happy single 17 year old college student.
 Well I'm getting tired of typing and I'm hungry, so I'm gonna go.
Much Love!
-Meeeeee :)