SUPER long and not even really that important.

 This Was Written Yesterday, But Since It Is SO Long...I Didn't Get To Finish It. :)

  So. I had Intro to Comm this morning from 9:30-10:50 and I thought that my Comp. II class started at 2....so here I am on campus in the library after Momma and Chris went to go look at yet ANOTHER house to stage. And I look at the clock and was like "hey, it's 1:50 time to go to class." So I get to the Clement building and I forgot which room number I was in, so I pass by a class room and see Rachel Craig and a different teacher and a few different people such as Rachel Hegginbottom. So I just thought to myself "hmmmm, that's weird - maybe we have a sub?" So being the STUPID blonde that I am I walk right in and see that there are NO seats so I go up to Rachel H. and say "Hey, ummmm what class is this?" And she says History! Oh my WORD I could have DIED! :( Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

     Then I go to the classroom that was SUPPOSED to be my class and there are two people in there and Mr. Setefield (my teacher) was THANKFULLY still in there. Then I'm all like "Do we not have class today?" And he's like - you mean the class that started at 12:30? GRRRRRRRRRR! I hate being forgetfull about the things that actually MATTER!

     And today ALREADY sucked pretty badly because of the rain and cold. My day yesterday did NOT go as planned: Over the weekend I told Paul that I liked him while at Vivian and Mark's. We chatted every night that we were there for about two hours EACH time.

     And one night we were chatting at 11:11 and I asked him what he was gonna wish for..and I know how y'all want to details...so I saved it so that I wouldn't have to repeat it OVER and OVER again. :)

 

Paul: idk. wbu?

Me: "I wish I may, I wish I might..." Oh, I love 11:11. I already made mine :)

Paul: what did you wish for? 

Me: that it would be a good weekend and that I'd be happy with whatever life throws at me...you?

[insert lame-ness, just kidding but his wish is TOP secret. Hehe...]

Me: :) hey, at least I told you mine this time 

Paul: THAT IS TRUE. BUT IT WAS KIND OF GENERAL

Me: how so? Okay fine I wished that you would like me...happy now, Mr. Paul? :P Why do you think that I never tell you my wishes. It's because most of the time they are QUITE embarrassing...

Paul: lol

Me: yup 

Paul: thats an odd wish

Me: how?

Paul: i guess cuz i'm an odd feller

Me: true :P

Paul: i do want you to know tho, like. i really don't want to get with anyone, no matter how much i want it.

i know i'm wierd, but i don't even think i could handle a relationship

Me: see that's just the thing you're not weird. It's funny everyone in my family asks me if I like you...and I mean yeah I guess I do, but after everything that went down with Jed I'm not ready for a relationship right now either...I was just thinking about how I wanted you to atleast know that I think you're cute and sweet and all...which sounds kind of lame but yeah. I understand about the whole wanting to but at the same time not wanting to. Wow, I can't believe that I just actually told you all of that. Sorry...

Paul: No, its cool. i kinda had a feeling you thought i was cute and all that mushy stuff. i'm just really happy we're close and cool

Me: okay, first of all that "mushy stuff"? That was kinda low down. :P Loser. But yeah, I'm happy too. So - still friends?

Paul: of course

Me: mmmkay. So, now that you know or whatever it's not gonna be weird, right? Because I didn't want to change things...

Paul: of course not. like i said, i already knew. well.. kinda. so no worries emily

Me: alrighty paul. well, my sister told me to get off of here like and hour ago...so I should probably get going...

Paul: haha. i understand. nighty night

Me: goodnight

 

 

The Next Night's conversation:

 

Me: so, I'm still in Murfresboro. I'll be here until tomorrow night. My brother Bruce (the one who is in the mental hospital) came down for the weekend so I stayed here. Was work busy?

Paul: I actually just called my work btw, to see if i'm working tomarrow. and i am. from 4PM-6:30PM.. what the heck? what kind of hours is that LOL? but to answer your question, ya it was decently busy

brb, i need to find some food

Me: mmmtay

Paul: alright. i got some rolls and some pizza :D

Me: :) you're silly

Paul: ITS SO BEAUTIFUL

Me: what is? pizza rolls?

Paul: the food. no. its rolls. and piza

Me: oh...well, that's good to hear :P 

Paul: thats good that its good to hear :)

Me: oh, what was the name of that anberlin song? I tried looking for it forever yeterday..

Paul: Fin :)

Me: good, because that's the one I thought it was. aka listening to it right now :)

Paul: its a good song :)

Me: true. very relaxing - just what I needed 

Paul: i like when the electric comes in makes me wana dance and twirl

Me: oh no, not your dancing. :D

Paul: oh yes, my dancing :D

Me: :)

Paul: so, its official. you can come to the maskarade thingy

Me: alright. sounds good. I bought / made my mask today, so I'm glad to hear that :)...it's pretty

Paul: does it have leaves in it? lol

Me: no, it was too cold today. lol hehe

Paul: oh my. lol. little miss nature here

Me: "yes? Mr. Paul, how may I help you?" :)

Paul: ummm. sing Fin for me :D

Me: maybe. I'll have to learn it first. :P

Paul: lol. ur such a chicken when it comes to singing

Me: yes, I am

Paul: its ok. i'll force you to do it from now on

Me:you know I might look like an innocent little lady...but I'm really not the one to be reckoned with :)

Paul: lol

Me: how about this - I'll sing for you one day. I just don't know when

Paul: lies. you already have

Me: true. but that wasn't me really singing, that was me mocking and yes, that is true too. :P

Paul: whatever miss emily, the nature lady. i'm just happy right now cuz i'm done eating :D

Me: :) you're cute

Paul: no, i'm a dancing pony. LOL

Me: :D hehe

Paul: i was calling myself a dancing pony at my health class tonight

Me: you're killing me. a dancing pony? :)

Paul: its true

Me: dork

Paul: thats meee

Me: yup

Paul: i'm thristy now :( oh

Me: oh, no :P

Paul: flkwjewe. soo, will i be picking you up in the Boro? this comming friday?

Me: yes, is that alright. Or should I have my momma drive me all of the way?

Paul: na, i was just clarifying that i was doing that. i just don't know how to get there and i'm really bad with directions

Me: I'll write down the address while I'm here, and I'll map quest it for you. Are you sure it's okay?

Paul: ok, and yes its fine

Me: mmmtay

Paul: i'm used to driving an hour and a half. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDskMF54vnw. brb, drink...

k. plain white milk. nummy

Me: very true. It's all I drink when I'm at home. :)

Paul: interesting. that made me stroke my invisible beard, thats how interesting that is

Me: hmmm. I love it...bye the way

Paul: its beautiful. oh the song

Me: yes

Paul: yeah, it talks about real thinking with how we think we fail in gods eyes but it helps me atleast remember, that or god is forgiving and just wants us

Me: yeah. I love Relient K. :) good taste Paul

Paul: well miss emily the nature mistress

i should be getting off facebook

Me: mmtay. Goodnight.

 

 

 

     Ummmm, that was REALLY long. Sorry ladies and gents. That's two of our conversations. This is probably taking up LOADS of space...But yeah, I'm just cool like that.

Much Love.

"I long to taste adventure like the nature of the sea,
Always moving, always hiding all the creatures from beneath.
Singing silent songs of sadness my heart waits for its chance,
To dance upon the ashes of my burned up little plans.

And I stand alone before the night.
My nakedness is so clear in the glow of the moonlight.
Life is old but so short.
We are young we want more.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

You don't need air.

My addiction to danger like the rush of the sea,
Like a wave on the rocks the lessons crash down on me.
I don't need to prove the world to you only to myself.
So step back and look away as I dive into the swell.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?
I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
You don't need air.

Take me down to the river like a little child,
Take my hand and tell me its okay to be wild.
I never knew the world until I saw through your eyes,
I never knew my self until I ripped off my disguise.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you've got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

I have come to the realization that life is more than what I have accomplished.
And life is more then the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all.
True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life
and give up the air that you breathe.
You don't need anything."

-The Classic Crime

 So, I haven't written in a REALLY long time, sorry. I guess that I just needed time to figure things out.  I have a whole life to live. I guess that it's time that I realized that life is SO much bigger than my little problems. I mean come on, there is a whole WORLD to see and explore.
 I have decided to go to the beach this summer as kind of like a renewal time. I'm going to go scuba diving for the first time. I am going to take sailing lessons. I want to learn the ropes. (No pun intended. :D Hehe). I get paid to go to school, so I figure what the heck - I might as well enjoy summer break. I haven't decided exactly WHERE I'm going, I don't even know exactly WHEN...but I haven't been to the beach in five long years. And I misss it.
 And P.S. not trying to be rude, but I really don't care how dumb and how much of a waste of money y'all think this might be.....I going and that's final. Yup. Oh, and anyone who would like to join me is more than welcome to come along. I will be paying for things and it's gonna be a blast so please join me ladies and gents! Tori and I have always planned on going anywhere that we want together in America after we both graduated from high school. Well, this will be the trip. :)
 Oh way of boys: I have decided that Jed is no longer a part of my life. I am the thing I build my plans around now. He's a jerk. It's been in front of me this whole time and I was too in love to see it or care for that matter. Well, I've FINALLY woken up. Oh, it feels SO freakin' good to be back! :)
 School is going to be AMAZING this semester. I have great teachers and friends that I already know in most of my classes. I have already bought my books, I'm just waiting on UPS to take it over to Harris Street where I will pick it up.
 I lost my glasses about a month ago. Ugh, these were the REALLY cute ones that I actually liked. But whatever....I looked EVERY where too. So, I'm going today to pick up my NEW-ER pair. Ha, they're SUPER cute. Many thanks to Amerigroup for paying for all of this. :)
 Yup, hmmmm...what else? Paul called me over break about four times and each time we talked for like an hour and a half. :) I hung out with him yesterday. It was fun. We went to Taco Bell between my classes then we hung out at the cabin after his class that ended at 3:20. Momma and Chris weren't home when we got there, so we went down and sat out on the dock and just talked for forever. Then we decided that we wanted some smores. So....we went and hung out in the pool house and roasted marshmallows over candles. :) P.S. The pool house does NOT have heat right now. But since mom and Chris were not there even though I TOLD them that Paul and I were coming over later - but it's coolio. We had LOADS of crazy fun freezing our tired butts off and making ghetto yummy treats. I know that I might sound kind of dumb, but I don't really know where I stand when it comes to Paul. I mean he a good friend and I think he's cute and sweet and all but I don't want things to change between us and go down-hill like they did with Jed....Chris says that I should just find a "rebound" guy so that I can FULLY get over Jed, but when I think about having a fling with some guy: promising nothing and ending up hurting us BOTH in the end - my tummy hurts. I know that it might be typical teen aged girl behavior rebounding off of a guy - BUT I've never been a typical teen girl have I? :) I hate being used and I REFUSE to use someone else. So, with this being said....I am a VERY happy single 17 year old college student.
 Well I'm getting tired of typing and I'm hungry, so I'm gonna go.
Much Love!
-Meeeeee :)