Yup, as most of you already know...me and Jed aren't dating anymore. I told him on the way home from the dance on Saturday night that we are better off as friends. When we were friends, we actually TALKED which is something we don't really do anymore and we don't really hang out either. I just feel like the more I try to make things work, the more he pulls away. His mom has made it quite clear that she doesn't want us to spend time with each other and that was putting and unneeded amount of stress on the both of us. I went over to his house on Friday night to watch Chocolat and Pam had Anika and her friend Julie watch it with us to "chaperone". Needless to say...I was not in a very good mood when I got home. I guess that since I have cried almost every day since we got home from Texas, I knew that something needed to change. I just didn't expect things to be so hard. When I got home from the dance, I cried HYSTERICALLY for almost three hours. Yeah, I know...that's loads of tears. :( Thank goodness I have momma to try and make things okay. So Sunday morning Jed calls at about 11am and asks if we are going to need a ride to church. The Fredline's were planning to give us one, so I told him "no, but thanks anyway". And I was thinking "maybe he doesn't hate me afterall." Well.....I was worng.
When I got to church I sat in my normal spot on the third row where the Drapers sit (they weren't there yet, because momma had choir practice, so I was there early). Anywhos, Anika and her friend Julie sat to my left and there was the rest of the bench to my right. (that's where Jed sits...) So after the blessing and passing of the sacrament Jed goes and sits on the OTHER side beside his dad. The same for sunday school, he sat on one end of the room and I sat on the other. He wouldn't even look at me. Ugh, I hate this.
So, yup. That's about the story in the readers digest form.
Well that's it for now...hopefully by the time I get around to writing my next post things will be happier and less depressing. But I guess that I just have to take things one small step at a time and hope for the best.
Sorry about the crying part--it gets easier. I love you!
ReplyDeleteAnd about him ignoring you--it happens. Just keep on being nice and make sure to never talk bad about him and ya'll will prob be friends again soon--just remember when ya'll are friends again that ya'll didn't work out as a couple so you don't repeat the horrible cycle that just drags you down to tears. Wow--sorry. I'm sure when he's home from his mission and ya'll are adults dating will be easier. Ooo now it's time to let the otha fellas know you would like to go on group/double dates with them so you can have fun with friends w/out having to pay for it. Ahh---free meals and entertainment is fun! Enjoy! Don't be like me though and go on a date with a Bennett and only talk about the guy you just dated--b/c that does not produce more dates. Oh Em, I know it's hard to imagine but you will have fun again and laugh and love life--it just takes time and chocolate and chick flicks and comedy's and girl time. P.s. lemme know when you need some girl time. P.s.s. music helps--just not the depressing crying kind!
ReplyDeletelove you love you love you!!!
Sorry about the drama, Emily! Boys are never, ever easy to figure out and even the most perfect ones can still confuse the living daylights out of you. I'm sorry it didn't work out, but a hottie such as yourself won't have to wait to long for your next dating adventure :) Just remember the good experiences, learn from the bad experiences and keep working on the awesome person you are!
ReplyDeleteAhhhh girlie, girlie, girlie... have Vivian set you up on a "blind" date with Mason (AKA he's the only one who doesn't know who they are going out with ;) ) Besides, there are plenty of fish in the water; so go and flirt with MEN (not BOYS... unless they are your age, then go on doubles... actually go on doubles until I can go and see who they are and give them the whole "this is my sister and I don't know how to work a rifle YET, but if you mess her up, I WILL FIND OUT!" yup, yup ;) ). Love you kiddo!
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